As a
19-yearold it's hard to comprehend all the time lost during this pandemic. It's
an endless grief period where there is hope that it will end but never seems
to. A person in the few people I meet was tested positive for Covid. The people
I sometimes meet are divided in two groups and unfortunately I was the
connecting link between the two groups. Obviously all the blame doesn't fall on
me since everyone knew and some of them met with other people two.
It just
happened to be me who had connected the two groups. Since I found out about all
this I am filled with guilt about all the pain I might cause. From the day we
found out everybody self-quarantined and have been extremely careful, in order
to minimize the effect all this might have on our families.
I can't tell you
that since the start of the quarantine I have been doing it right, of course
there have been months at a time where I didn't see anyone besides my family
but also there have been times where I went out quite often. The consequences
don't show their face until they are knocking at your door.
Tomorrow I am
getting tested to see if I am the horrible link, hopefully I am not. Before
uploading this I will have gotten my results and will offer an update at the
end of the post. It is very alienating self-isolating in a home full of people,
everybody eating together while you eat alone. I know it's only two weeks but I
can't say that I am the strongest mentally, since I found out I haven't been in
my best shape, I haven't been crying for two days straight but it breaks my
heart that I have to be the bearer of bad news to my family and friends every
day, it sucks.
I will definitely be more careful going forward and it will be
weird being close to people again. I am ready for all of this to be over but it
just doesn't end, I want to go back to normal, I want my life back.
Don't be
like me stay safe with everything you do for yours and others sake just be good
and get vaccinated if you can because everybody is to the brim with all of
this, going forward obviously so will I.
UPDATE
The results came in thankfully I tested negative nevertheless I will continue a strict quarantine for 14 days and after that will see. Be careful everybody and just don't be dumb like me.
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